Things are not getting better where i feel we are not communicating at all... one after another F is so distanct and annoying. How could a person said Have a great night while i just mentioned that my uncle whom wife just died a week ago now suffered from stroke. It was just show how F was not attentive and read the message or convo we were talking.
Less and less... the more i think about it... i am becoming more negative esp about not wanting to talk over viber... sigh.
And i dont even knw anything anymore... bought ticket to melbourne....
I know You never been in a relationship before but its all logic... i feel i am not your BF at all.... never had any time for me.... what the use....
I am fed up... I am ending this with you F... i may as well be single as i am never part of your life. okay... OVER!!

It has been many months since i wrote in here. No more Q in life... very ungrateful person i have ever met in my life...  i must say the most ungrateful person. Anyhow life moves on... Practically enjoying my single life with the normal gang and i reconnected back with some old friends and things been so nice.
Usual life with works etc and i did go to Health Minister Meeting in Hanoi which i thought wasa good experience although lots of people raised their eye brows wondering on what capacity i was going and some even belittled me. who cares!!
well it was new year again and well i planned getaway and so... went JB and then KL met up with the gang there, usual. Well i met a person name F and one thing led to another we are dating. But we do long distance. It all good... well we only spent time like 2 months together and F had to leave for study. So yeah we are on a long distance relationship. I am well aware of time differences so we make do. I like to have viber so we can get in touch. First two weeks were okay although i wasnt pleased while F hanging out especially with someone that had interest in F. Sigh.... Anyhow cut short, only wassap... as F claimed to be not keen using viber or talking over the phone (this was mentioned while wishing me Happy Birthday where i stated a viber would be nice). Sigh...
I feel so neglected as i got nothing... well finally i found F was sending me birthday card which like ermmm why so late... today it is 19 june. F stated that too busy with assignment.... i could understand that but like just a card and F could arrange it early for me to get it. i hope i am not being not sensible here.
F kept saying i could just be normal to life prior to having F but i just cant as now we are in a relationship. it is just different. Even when i wanted to do something sweet, always shut down. and i dont knw anymore of F life as never share like i do. we are couple hence i feel yea i have right to know....
Really i dont knw whether i can continue this.... This is so J all over again.... i feel more single than i was really single..... ok enough of this tonight. Sigh... Happy Fasting ppl......