LIFE JUST SHIT!! hahaha

I know I should not complaint! As I know this is what I am expected of working here… well overall is okay, just that with this particular dept/unit, even before I left there has always been problems. I just don’t get it, with others, we seemed to work really well. I mean like only this particular dept/unit while others seem to be okay so I reckon it is not us!
Okay the thing is that our unit is supposed to attend this round meeting weekly, the thing is that it will take normally 3 hours and yet our input in this is not even huge, I mean we do see patients from this dept/unit but we don’t get to discuss them unless important. Like the 3 hours what we normally do is just sit and listen. You just imagine the 3 hours could have been used to a better thing like seeing patients, writing reports, for me to check reports, etc… and there are times that it coincides with other urgent cases and meeting which we have to attend. The thing is that I still remember Julia my neuropsychologist supervisor at RGH, for round like this, she would only attend when needed and there were cases to be discussed or else she would see patients etc as there is shortage of manpower in the dept. And I don’t see the team see it as a big problem as long as she is doing her job. And she would attend and the moment the cases been discussed, she would leave. And people are ok with it. I mean it looks not nice etc but think logically and rationally. Our rehab psychology dept RGH only consist of 3 staffs, two clinical psychologists and one neuropsychologist, hence under-staffs and of course, we would utilize the time nicely and appropriately. And yes we did our job. See patients, feedback patients/family and do reports etc. And do the needful.
I mean here, for our unit, just imagine, it is the same, just three staffs, and only me the fully qualified one and of course covering and catering the whole RIPAS and others as well…. Would be hard. And still this particular person cant see it. Only see thing thru their eyes… so eccentric! This dept/unit is specific for theirs while ours we caters from others as well. It is like why this dept/unit feels that we need to give an extra and particular attention or special treatment just for them, and for the fact that I don’t feel the same. We always feel we never been appreciated and like if we give appointments to the patients despite we book that early, always the case, they will priorities others and last minutes changed ours. It is like, we have to be flexible, of course we do but don’t take advantage of it. Like they know we book the patients why book the patients for other thing like X-ray at the same times. It shows how these people don’t really respect our schedule and change as they like.
And one more thing, I don’t get it… we are not under them. We are not their staffs and yet I don’t know why this dept/unit feels they have the authority power over us, instructing us this and that. I was $%^&. Just recently, for the round, like I said I may have lots of other things to do, and I was insisted that I attend the round meeting and no one else. Fair enough as I could give the right feedback etc being the only qualified one from my department, but I was just asking for understanding that at times due to urgent cases (such as police cases, VIP etc) and other unforeseen circumstances, I am unable to attend every week and my absence looks like I am not committed. And being the committed person I am, I do allocate others to go on my behalf… still this is not allowed. And I was told off. Like come on 3 %^&**&^% hours!! I do attend other rounds such as rehab and stroke… for neurology…but these round would only lasted for like 30mins the most and very efficient!! Not a waste of time!! And they all seem to be okay and happy. And one more thing about the other dept/unit… so far honestly I never feel welcome at all… people are sour!! Well not fair for me to say that… not all… but even the clerks or attendance whatever no social skills and just sour faces… as if they hold superior posts … I felt that I rather talk to specialists than these people!!
Okay I think I rather do something about this… to draw a line etc… yes I am writing minutes to inform the situation etc. and like this is our dept/unit, I do the allocations here… and that dept/unit cant choose whom they like to be there as they have to respect us… we are not theirs!!
Anyhow… maybe I am just negative that my mood is a bit down… just like this morning, the radio 90.7… I felt that the DJ (a lady deejay) was so stupid… she was playing this song “Bahagia” by Cynthia Lamusu and Surya Saputra… and she was like… I don’t know the singers (fair enough) and the part she mentioned the name of the singers, she was like.. I don’t know which one is the girl and the guy, I was like… are you dumb? Cynthia is obviously a girl’s name and that leave Surya Saputra to be the guy, don’t u have any logic!! Stupid!! Haha…. Ok people I better stop complaining!! Hahaha… I hope to be feeling positive and better soon!!