Have u ever feel that despite you have so many friends but at times.. u just have urself and lonely and the ppl that u want to be wit you are not wit you or like the ppl that you expect to be frens would be the one whom made u feel lonely... and like u always there for them.. but when u need them.... they r not there and the least ppl that you expect to be there for u... there for u.... and like it made u think... wow... laugh n fun many ppl and once u r down, then u knw who r your real friends are.... for me... i knw all these times, i always think family are your best fren... blood always thicker than water.. but i do knw at times we are also blessed wit friends... and i knw i am... just that... i cant trust some frens thats all... i am always skeptical that some r just there for convenient... and at times, must say i have selfish fren... whom just want to get their ways thru you... like after a while... not even "How are you" and just simply ask this and that for their benefits... some ppl are just fren for fun... i mean i m not complaining.. i have observed that its hard to find genuine one... i had few occasions when i was really down.. i felt i had no frens at all... but one thing i always observed.. ppl that i least expect.. wont lend me their shoulders n be there.... funny how world works ya.... i remember one day... i have close frens here... but like they will be last to be there for me and to knw wat happend to me... instead frens whom are not here in brunei... comforted me... Love u C for that... and like always... D will be online n always a pillar to me.. by wanting to kick my ass to make me realise my doings! hahah... and chat with Kieu and Divya always lovely... and well... firdaus and Haiza... hehe .. of course! hehe... these are frens ppl.... and i do knw... i always can revert to God... always... nah just like just now... i feel lonely again... mayb GAD hahah n msg ppl but like ermm... late reply one thing n well... really others no respond... i tot coffee or so.. i mean i would text haiza but not suitable hahah but guess wat... fir called in to chat... i was like wow... like he knws i needed a fren to talk to hahah... called in all the way from down under... ermm nice... thats a fren... n once i m online... D texted... wow... unlike some ppl online... until i say hi dont expect them to approach u first unless they needed to ask something! wat the... anyhow.. til later... well i may forget to mention some ppl... just the moment.. i mean i have dear fren in Meela.. Haslin also hehehe... mayb next time i will talk abt other ppl.. ehehehehe