Sunday, December 29, 2013

One of the last messages you sent was that you asked me to define friend or love one? That when you asked to choose between a friend and you. Yes you were my loved on... I used were as we over now... although I must say I still love you. We been together for almost 2 years, it is not easy for me as you think but I know this is for the best. While you were in KL... we had the best time of our life... but I don't know why eversince you are back to Brunei things changed drastically. I lost you... you became an angry person... I tried being there and accept whatever but you dumped me again and again. Labelled with harsh words and many.... I took all and still willing to stay by your side. Many times you said you no longer wanted our relationship when I asked and still I stayed by your side. I got confused as one day I am your loved on and another day I am a stranger.
And when lately I managed to get myself a friend.... a friend... I am much happier and I can be myself. I can talk and tell anything. And I even told you about this friend. And as you did not even want to meet me again... I spent time with my friend. And you know the story. Yes almost each day we spent time together as I feel more real. We do mutual activities this and that... and with you all we had was phone call, wassap and yes phone calls..... what real in that?! You said you are afraid to see me.... and prefer this way after KL.... And yes you killed my feeling.... from time to time....
I just don't know what to say and u asked me friend or love one... for this case I stick with my friend.... as I don't feel u and I are lovers in a real sense!

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