Thursday, November 26, 2009
anyhow... D called me today from Seychelles... i miss her... and i kind of insisted that come to visit me!!!! and well i definitely look frwd for this!!! ok till later!
Sunday, November 22, 2009
"So long, fare thee well
The dancer and the dancing days have taken leave and fell
So turn down this bed of stone
Quench me with the deadly nightshade from the rose that you belong
The long December rain is falling now
Running down on streets to nowhere
Music is my life you're my sweetest nightingale
But I can't hear it here no more
And I go
Hush now, don't shake or break
Words have fallen silent like soldiers to the grave
No matter what they do or say
Lay me on the sleepy meadow by the tracks upon your face"
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Anyhow, it has been very busy after the Hari Raya, works seems endless... at times i feel i am so busy that i dont even have for myself... health been deteriorating as never have the enough rest. Even today, supposed to have the World diabetic day event but i decided to stay home and rest. Mood have been up and down... i know what i need is a break! Just imagine there are times when i have like 3 meetings at a day and for crying out load, where can i have my time to see my patients, to organise my unit and to supervise my staffs! I think this has somehow affected my clinical skills. Damn at times, i wish i have more qualified staffs with me not only me alone to make all the decisions alone. And well i wish some have more initiative and more innovative as well.... sigh....
anyhow... i be okay i guess!
There been a wedding as well, and for once, i wasnt involved actively as i wasnt that well... missed few occasions and really feel sorry for that.
Anyhow, december is coming and all... well better month i hope....
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Setiap kali ku mengerti
Jalan ini tak semestinya
Ku tempuh dalam hidupku
Seandainya aku mau
Seharusnya aku bisa
Tinggalkanmu yang slama ini
Ku cinta dalam hatiku
Yang tak mampu lagi berpura-pura
Untuk tak cintai kamu
Selama ini di depannya
Ku tak sanggup lagi
Terus kau suruh untuk slalu mengalah
Lebih baik aku pergi
Dari cinta yg tak pernah untukku"
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Okay, this week has been wow... last sunday, i woke up feeling a bit pain in my leg... but i tot just maybe i sprained it... i even went out to open houses, but later in the evening i realized something was not right, went to A&E well so many people, waited a bit but decided to go back. I couldnt sleep and about 3am i went back to A&E, i am sorry i know this is not general but the doctor i saw (not local) god he was useless... he didnt even do any investigation, like blood test, with the history given by me,.. i was pissed, i know i m bit selective with some painkillers, the doctor was like.. "wat can i give u then" pathetic... i just left.. and i tot nevermind i just go work n look for my fren in the morning. Well, ya... with my walking stick i turned to work, even saw patients in the wards, and blessed Dr Connie and Dr Munir did a check on me, and well did blood x ray... well we figured it gout. And i am on colchicine, it helped. But i think i needed the rest, i didnt get MC and still turned to work n i think walking around to wards n seeing patients taken a toll on me, i wasnt feeling well on wednesday and after stroke round on wed pm, i went home to rest, and slept and waking up to feeling SOB, got my asthma!! i tot i can wean it off by resting, it got worst... and about 3am, i was reluctant but i had to... i felt that i need nebulizer so i went to A&E again, hehehe mum was mad to find out that i went alone n drove myself... well now it was okay as i got Local doctor, she was good, got my nebulizer done, and prednisolone for my asthma, Oh ya i forgot to mention b4 all these, i got infection on my finger and i was on antibiotic flucloxacillin. Talk about heavily medicated i am...got mc.. and well yesterday, whole day, i kept going to toilet... diarheaa!, as i know i been warned that my medication will upset my stomach damn... i couldnot slept whole nyte only managed to sleep aroung 5am n up about 7am to go to work. Went to work but i needed toilet constantly with the "diarheaa"... i was like oh god hahaha... one after another... well hope next week is better....
Anyhow, i had my open house on 1st october 09, and my my the reception was overwhelmed. Didnt expect many people and we ran out food.. we opened around 5pm and not even 8pm, we ran out of food... and people kept coming... i couldnt do anything, sis-in-law, my bro were like .... heheh but mum n dad were quick to tackle the problem..... just imagine, we invited n yet not all turned up n still not enough! hahaha.... well... good one though....
anyhow... i think we should take a moment with all the disasters that happening around us, in Padang, in Phillipines... i think we should be grateful that we are here... pray all okay... and our prayers go to those ppl...
okay will stop here... til later ppl...
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Well, this was some time also... i think it was on 15th September 2009, after our work visit to KB... as it was fasting month... we finished work at 2pm and we decided to go Miri.. this was our second trip... the first was on the 5th Sept 2009... hehehehe Just me, Alinah and Moon...
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
By Acha Septriasa
"ku tak tahu mengapa aku
begitu sulit melepasmu pergi
ku tak tahu mengapa aku
begitu sakit melepas dirinya
mungkinkah aku terlalu memaksa
jika ku ingin ada keduanya
yang aku tahu aku cintai dia
yang aku tahu begitu pula dirinya
tak habis-habis ku curahkan
isi hatiku tuk keduanyatapi mustahil bila ku terima semua
biarkan ini jadi keputusanku
ku rasakan sekarang ku coba sendiri
karna tak bisa ku memilihaku coba sendiri
ku tak tahu mengapa aku (sulit melepasmu)
(ku tak bisa untuk memilih)"
D, i was reading your blog... my my... i miss u heaps!!! Miss our days... and these few days, i was a bit down and god i damn miss u A LOT!!!!!!!!! I cant love anyone as much as i love u!!! Too bad... we are far hahahaha... but well... u r always in my heart....
Anyhow... people do ask how am i doing... still the same... always busy with work... last few weeks... despite it is ramadhan... it had been very busy... attended lots of meeting.... tell u till next week saturday... i have tonnes of meeting... and many referrals as well... so this ramadhan had been fast....
About personal life... nothing much really... still going out with someone... but honestly... going downhill... just waiting right moment to end it.... wont say much.... well at least that what i want.... its hard when it became a burden.... anyhow... i will be okay....
And well, Raya is just around the corner... i must find the mood... hehehehe okay til later.....
Monday, September 7, 2009
Sunday, September 6, 2009
"Seandainya saja kau bisa mengerti
Apa mau aku sekali ini
Mungkin aku takkan merasa bersalah
Karena telah putuskanmu
Cinta memang tak bisa ditebak
Jalannya membuatku bingung selalu
Karena sekali tersakiti
Pasti hilang sudah cinta itu jadi benci
Sia-siakah ini tak tau pasti
Akankah berubah nyatanya rasaku tetap sama
Masihlah sama terhadap kamu sayang"
Sunday, July 19, 2009
'Walau aku senyum bukan berarti/ Aku selalu bahagia dalam hari
Ada yang tak ada di hati ini/ di jiwa ini
Ku bertemu sang adam di simpang hidupku
Mungkin akan ada cerita cinta
Namun ada saja cobaan hidup
Seakan aku hinaTuhan berikanlah aku cinta
Untuk temaniku dalam sepi
Tangkap aku dalam terangMu
Biarkan lah aku punya cinta
Tuhan berikanlah aku cinta
Aku juga berhak bahagia
Berikan restu dan halal
MuTuhan beri aku cinta…"
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Friday, July 3, 2009
"Sepi hati terjadi lagi
Mungkin sampai mati aku sepi
Biar senyum hadir di hariku
Namun ini hanya ada di bibir
Di bibir saja
Aku ini yang bisa mengerti
Walaupun yang lain mau mengerti
Namun berat beban di hidupku
Biarkan saja biar sajaHanya ku yang tahu
Sejarah cinta dan hidupku
Penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
Butuh kesabaran yang penuh
Untuk tetap kuberdiri
Oh! ada saatnya kubicara
Bila hatiku t'lah bulat
Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua
Aku tetap diam"
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
On the brighter note.... i managed to shed the weight i gained in Australia... so far i managed to lose 6kg and well few more to my ideal (well my BMI is still ok all these time) just that i wanna my own ideal weight.... and well... will put new pic soon... well this pics were taken during my cousin Azim's birthday, needed some fun....
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
And today i got a lovely card from my good friend, Calvin... i was a bit down today n getting the gift from my good fren Calvin, wow he lifted up my spirit and make my day. My baby not well today but still my baby words made me happy... tnxs ppl... i feel so love....
apart from that nothing much, lots of wedding and i been busy.... and well, during my birthday, Haiza lost her dad, it was really sad... i attended the funeral.... n i was sorry that i was busy and the n i had 2 days MC thus i couldnt attend the Tahlil and during the weekend was caught up with weddings... i wanted to be there... as Haiza n family are like my family.... and well wanted to give them space too and i didnt know Ian left tonight otherwise i would have gone to airport to send him off... i see Ian as brother hehehe.... anyhow... will catch up definitely.... and well i just realised being head of unit is not easy many admin work to do... hehehe n i m not good! hahahaa.... anyhow i will catch up soon ya!!