I got this album long ago around fasting time... when i first came back to Brunei last year, this group was so famous... ST12... nice songs indeed... and well... you know at times, i bought dvds/cds and it just lying around.. same with this ST12 'Religi' album... and recently i was listening to this album and i kinda fall in love with these two songs... entitled 'Memujamu' and 'Anugerah Ilahi' ... very catchy and very poprock!
MEMUJAMU
"Bila ku lihat bintang semua begitu indah terbentang di langit jika ku lihat bulan sungguh begitu indah membentang di langit
semua apa yang ku lihat hanya Tuhan yang bisa menciptakan semua Tuhan memberi keindahan yang terindah seisi langit dan bumi ciptaanMu Tuhan
reff: biarkan aku berada di sini biar ku tahan laju angin ajarkan aku bersujud padaMu ajarkan aku untuk hidup tiada tuhan selain Allah Allahu Akbar Allah Maha Besar ijinkan aku bersujud padaMu ku agungkan kebesaranMu"
ANUGERAH ILAHI
"Saat ku tak berdaya terlelap dalam cinta mungkinkah ku bertahan jalani waktu yang indah sudahlah memang sudah kan ku biarkan saja mungkin ku tak percaya memberi arti, memberikan cinta dalam hidup kita, ooo
reff: bila aku terbang tinggi dan takkan bisa terjadi ada yang tak bisa lagi anugerah sang Illahi jangan kau tak rela pergi meninggalkan cinta sejati aku tetap jaya lagi anugerah sang Illahi"
I watched this movie a couple days ago... i tot it was nice.. maybe cliche but it was fun and very good feel movie! Especially watching it alone... and at night... dark... u cant help but your mind drawn and wonder into it!
The plot:
It all started with MSN. Four teenagers making friends online, they yet haven't met, but are bound to come across each other in an unusual circumstance.
Thee(Kanin Bhatia) and Nut(Suppasit Chinwinijkul) are siblings who live in Bangkok while June(Sarocha Tanjararak) and Jane are siblings who live in Phuket. Though living in different part of the country, they know how to connect the world in their hand by chatting on MSN making friends with other people. One day, Nut, who is an online friend of Jane knocks on her door to surprise her, but this causes Thee to misunderstand that his brother might be tricked by a stranger who he met online. Then, Thee heads to Phuket to bring Nut back. While seeking Nut in Phuket, Thee meets June, the girl that he chats on MSN, but their encounter isn't much impressive which brings more problems to their complicated love.
"Bila kau bukanlah cinta sejati mungkin aku takkan pernah mengerti hati yg tulus setia yg indah dan semua yg terjadi antara kita
maaf untuk semua cara yg salah itu hanya inginku membuktikan tiada yg lain dalam hidupku sungguh tak ada maksud tuk menyakitimu
reff: sebentuk hatiku buat kekasihku mengiring rinduku yg selalu untuknya memang tak selalu ada yg terbaik dari diri ini dan juga dirinya namun ku yakin cinta ini takkan pernah salah"
Oh ya a couple days ago, i was at the gym while walking around bumped into this lady... whom was smiling, so well i just smiled back and she approached and we talked.. you normal talked as you are in the gym where everyone is friendly with everyone... but like the tone was like she knew me... like from work or so.. i reckon maybe one of the nurses... like how she said havent seen me around... i was like ya busy bla.. bla... and how she was like saying will be away from work for a while... we talked ... knowing me i could simply converse... but i realised after we finished i think both of us realized that we may have approached wrong person... hahahaha... as i had the look "who is she" and she had the same look "who is he" and ya after my classes there... despite we bumped into one another... she didnt talk to me again! and vice versa! ahahaha
"Akhirnya semua akan tiba pada suatu hari yg biasa pada suatu ketika yg telah lama kita ketahui apakah kau masih sambut dahulu memintaku minum susu sambil membenarkan letak leher kemejaku
kabut tipis pun turun pelan-pelan di lembah kasih lembah bandalawangi kau dan aku tegak berdiri melihat hutan” yg menjadi suram meresapi belaian angin yg menjadi dingin
apakah kau masih membelaiku semesra dahulu ketika kudepak, kau dekaplah lebih mesra lebih dekat
apakau kau masih akan berkata kudengar dekap jantungmu kita begitu berbeda dalam semua kecuali dalam cinta
cahaya bulan menusukku dengan ribuan pertanyaan yg takkan pernah aku tahu dimana jawaban itu bagai letusan berapi bangunkan dari mimpi sudah waktunya berdiri mencari jawaban kegelisahan hati"
I watched this movie… I thought it was really nice… it made me think about how people when relationship are so eager to say the word… love… when all in love..… all are sweet…all are nice…. But then come the good bye bit… all turned sour…. And I like the tag for the movie… CAN YOU PROMISE FOREVER?.... I know when ppl are in love… typically they will say… I will love you forever…. But always the case it is never!
Its new year already and I know I haven’t wished all ppl a very happy new year… I am not sceptical but for me it is just another day…. A day older and still many things to be done. I could still recall being a bit ‘MAD’ thinking how on earth on the 31st Dec 2009, that there were 3 meetings to attend and yet I couldn’t attend any as I already booked patients to be seen in Tutong and Belait…. Furthermore, they only informed a day before, like in Wednesday! And once phone call was like at 3plus in the afternoon! WTH! And like things like these need to be looked at and rectified.
And I feel that I need to put a stop on these problems as well… like I know I been get to involved in a lot of things…meetings la…MME la H1N1 la… and I get involved in so many multidisciplinary teams… and yet no matter how hard to try to please and make everyone happy… still people are not happy with you. Let me say here… I have to cover like MHU, Stroke, Rehab Medicine, Obesity Clinic, Cardiac Rehab, CDC, Spinal Cord team, for outpatients and inpatients, and on top of that actively involve with whatever thing like meetings for this opening, that opening, committee for service directory la, board la etc… and have to cover Tutong and Belait as well. Just imagine, I know I have staffs under me, but some cases are needed to see by me first hand and being the only qualified one under the medical services, I am up to my neck! I am getting tired and so fed up, I make one happy and make another not happy… and just recently, been invited to join the MDT for oncology as well as we see their patients as well… just imagine, clinical time and then some admin things to do…. It is so pack… and still people not please not happy…. The problem is I don’t have much time to supervise or teach fully my junior staffs… thus I need them to be more proactive etc…. it is just that being label as trainee doesn’t entitle them to make decision and all, and these people would prefer to have me rather than them. I know as being the one qualified would be the best person but like I am the only one… it is hard! Like one example, I heard when people not happy as I supplied my junior to cover me for obesity clinic… and like they were like… we keep changing ppl…. We don’t…., its myself n one of my junior… so that when I cant make it, my junior would see the patients…. Wouldn’t that be better than no one at all seeing the patients?
For MHU it is understandable that they prefer me full time but I cant commit to that… I can just get the referral and see the patients in my clinic… while for Stroke and Rehab, I think it is more to neuropsych I rather be the one who attended the team as my junior wont have a clue about neuropsych at all… it is a specialised area….I mean like people tell me that I should understand…. More like do they understand me? Like one in a while when I need to go KB or meeting or even on leave… I wont be able to attend rounds and so forth…. Just at times, I feel time is playing a joke… when I m around for rounds… at times, no case for me. The moment I was not attending people look for you…. Phew!
I know times are so constraining… like KB day is always Thursday for me and Tutong… it coincides with Rehab round and Obesity clinic so I have to make sacrifices. In that not that I go KB very often… the most is twice a month… and like I feel Rehab or Obesity would have to understand ya… I mean like Obesity… my junior would cover… and for rehab, at times I go KB to review the rehab patients there. Agnes was arguing just now that I should have prioritize but my argument is that…. i have to be fair… once a month in KB… is that too much to ask…. And for obesity, once I told a dietician that I was gonna be on leave, the person made faces to me…. Looking spastic and sceptically like… “who will see the patients on clinic day” I was like only a day… and like there were day I am at the clinic n no patients! Don’t I deserve break? And like she was on leave as well at times and no review! Human just like that… they can do it and yet others cant! And like u do 90% good work and slip out 10% and they will talk about the 10% bad things… and forget the good work!
I know I m vending my anger out here…. I love my work… I love my patients… it is just that the system and people that you work with! Anyhow… I plan to see CEO or ACEO to ask for some advice in this manner as I need to put a stop to these…. And like I can understand and I hope ppl understand as well…
Okay forget abt it… I knw I should be recharged as I took leave before the new year…. But maybe I need more!!!Hehehe anyhow I cant wait for my next trip!! Soon!!
