Tuesday, January 5, 2010

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

Its new year already and I know I haven’t wished all ppl a very happy new year… I am not sceptical but for me it is just another day…. A day older and still many things to be done. I could still recall being a bit ‘MAD’ thinking how on earth on the 31st Dec 2009, that there were 3 meetings to attend and yet I couldn’t attend any as I already booked patients to be seen in Tutong and Belait…. Furthermore, they only informed a day before, like in Wednesday! And once phone call was like at 3plus in the afternoon! WTH! And like things like these need to be looked at and rectified.

And I feel that I need to put a stop on these problems as well… like I know I been get to involved in a lot of things…meetings la…MME la H1N1 la… and I get involved in so many multidisciplinary teams… and yet no matter how hard to try to please and make everyone happy… still people are not happy with you. Let me say here… I have to cover like MHU, Stroke, Rehab Medicine, Obesity Clinic, Cardiac Rehab, CDC, Spinal Cord team, for outpatients and inpatients, and on top of that actively involve with whatever thing like meetings for this opening, that opening, committee for service directory la, board la etc… and have to cover Tutong and Belait as well. Just imagine, I know I have staffs under me, but some cases are needed to see by me first hand and being the only qualified one under the medical services, I am up to my neck! I am getting tired and so fed up, I make one happy and make another not happy… and just recently, been invited to join the MDT for oncology as well as we see their patients as well… just imagine, clinical time and then some admin things to do…. It is so pack… and still people not please not happy…. The problem is I don’t have much time to supervise or teach fully my junior staffs… thus I need them to be more proactive etc…. it is just that being label as trainee doesn’t entitle them to make decision and all, and these people would prefer to have me rather than them. I know as being the one qualified would be the best person but like I am the only one… it is hard! Like one example, I heard when people not happy as I supplied my junior to cover me for obesity clinic… and like they were like… we keep changing ppl…. We don’t…., its myself n one of my junior… so that when I cant make it, my junior would see the patients…. Wouldn’t that be better than no one at all seeing the patients?

For MHU it is understandable that they prefer me full time but I cant commit to that… I can just get the referral and see the patients in my clinic… while for Stroke and Rehab, I think it is more to neuropsych I rather be the one who attended the team as my junior wont have a clue about neuropsych at all… it is a specialised area…. I mean like people tell me that I should understand…. More like do they understand me? Like one in a while when I need to go KB or meeting or even on leave… I wont be able to attend rounds and so forth…. Just at times, I feel time is playing a joke… when I m around for rounds… at times, no case for me. The moment I was not attending people look for you…. Phew!

I know times are so constraining… like KB day is always Thursday for me and Tutong… it coincides with Rehab round and Obesity clinic so I have to make sacrifices. In that not that I go KB very often… the most is twice a month… and like I feel Rehab or Obesity would have to understand ya… I mean like Obesity… my junior would cover… and for rehab, at times I go KB to review the rehab patients there. Agnes was arguing just now that I should have prioritize but my argument is that…. i have to be fair… once a month in KB… is that too much to ask…. And for obesity, once I told a dietician that I was gonna be on leave, the person made faces to me…. Looking spastic and sceptically like… “who will see the patients on clinic day” I was like only a day… and like there were day I am at the clinic n no patients! Don’t I deserve break? And like she was on leave as well at times and no review! Human just like that… they can do it and yet others cant! And like u do 90% good work and slip out 10% and they will talk about the 10% bad things… and forget the good work!

I know I m vending my anger out here…. I love my work… I love my patients… it is just that the system and people that you work with! Anyhow… I plan to see CEO or ACEO to ask for some advice in this manner as I need to put a stop to these…. And like I can understand and I hope ppl understand as well…

Okay forget abt it… I knw I should be recharged as I took leave before the new year…. But maybe I need more!!! Hehehe anyhow I cant wait for my next trip!! Soon!!

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